Who's the cutest girl around?

I am a mom of a cutie pie (very biased). And I wanted to share my experiences with others (including my cuties grandparents, great-grandparents, numerous uncles and other relatives). I love being a mom and can't imagine doing anything else.

Monday, July 06, 2009

2 years

My life changed so dramatically two years ago today, to the point where it became unrecognizable to me. Two years ago I held my baby girl for the last time. Two years is a long time. But I don't like to let that day define her. My brother-in-law said something the other day that rings true for me. He said that he felt bad for people who he has met since Alivia died. He felt bad because they just feel the sadness that she died and never got to know the joy of being around her. Because to us, who got to see that smile and hear that laugh, who got to be bossed around by her and received sticker covered gifts from her, who held her and smelled her and danced in her room, she isn't just the kid who lost her battle with leukemia. She is the most amazing little ladybug we ever knew. She is funny, sweet, cuddly, smart, brave and our favorite person.
Livi, I was lucky to be your mom. I got to spend more time with you than anyone and for that I will always be so greatful. I knew every little bit of you and you are in my heart and on my mind all the time. Not a second goes by that I don't wonder what you would say if you were with me right now. I love you and miss you too much to put into words.

22 Comments:

Blogger Caren said...

Thinking and praying for you today.

9:17 AM  
Blogger Sheila said...

lots of prayers for you today.

9:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for comfort and peace, for you and your loved ones today.
Neysa

10:49 AM  
Blogger Bre said...

You are a huge inspiration. Thinking and praying for you and James and your families today.

11:13 AM  
Blogger Steph B. said...

Praying for you all today!!! May the Lord give you comfort!

11:16 AM  
Blogger cori said...

its true. i wish i had really known livi. sometimes i feel like i do from hearing so many things about her. even though i wasn't a part of her life, her outstanding personality seems so obvious to me.

i love you.

11:20 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

you are right, she was the greatest///and so are you!!!! gigi

1:25 PM  
Blogger tines said...

yes, what a precious and special girl livi was, emily. and you and james, such a loving mamma & dad. thinking of/praying for you guys today. love.

2:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking about you & love you . . . Maureen

3:38 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

I think that it is best to think of the good times today and share as many fun Livi memories as you can. I'll be thinking of you guys and her of course.

cousin sarah

4:12 PM  
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4:12 PM  
Blogger Ang Stoltzfus said...

i've been thinking of you....such a sweet sweet post. i miss her & all of the personality that she had! love you.

8:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

" Call Pa "

8:23 PM  
Blogger Vicki said...

I am praying for you guys… I loved what you wrote Emily… Livi was such sunshine to all around her… although your loss is great, and it must feel like the sun doesn’t shine anymore, I want to rejoice with you in her life. She was the apple of your eye… I am so grateful you had such special, wonderful memories too… I pray they become stronger, funnier, and sweeter each day… I pray that your little sunshine will shine down on all of you today and you will feel her with you.

10:42 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

God grant you peace and comfort. I will keep you in my thoughts today ...you remain in my prayers... Phyllis

9:35 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey girl youre on my mind a ton..all i could think about was.. livi would probably like these fireworks

but then, maybe she was like me who was terrified haha

wish she was there. and she always is kinda.

i like the vids you showed me. i dont think they would get old- so feel free to whip them out whenever. please =)

linnnda

1:38 PM  
OpenID bethyoung said...

sweet post :)

9:19 PM  
Blogger Melody Strayer said...

She is breathtaking. As someone else said, although I never got the joy to know her, I have enjoyed following your blog and reading about her little Alivia-isms :) and hearing special stories about her. You are a phenomenal Mama.

Praying.

2:16 PM  
Blogger Moriah Freeman said...

so true emily. I never got to know livi that well. But whenever I saw her she was always smiling. I am sure you miss your little ladybug. I continue to pray for you. What a sweet girl. =) MIss you and love u livi!!!

moriah

8:45 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Each day with my girls I think of yours - and though I have heartache for you and James I also realize what tremendous joy you experienced having had Liv in your lives. You are held high in prayer.
Anne

9:07 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thinking of you all with so much love. What a blessing to remember all the little things she did. Alivia had a blast with you guys. Love, Aunt Cheryl and Uncle Paul

9:46 AM  
Blogger Grancie said...

i only met her once. she was just four months old but i was so taken by her that i went home with a picture that i kept on my fridge and told anyone who saw it that my niece was exceptionally smart, cute, and funny. i had an instant maternal affection towards her moreso than any other child(i love babies in general). then when she got sick it was so hard to believe and following your blog daily was the one of the most wrenching and heartwarming experiences of my life. and though i didn't get to know alivia, she got stuck in my heart. still is. her picture remains on my board at work and fridge at home. i will never forget her. so, i know as a mother and now a grandmother how inconcievable it is that such a cruel thing happened to such a beautiful and alive little girl so dear to your heart. (tanner is now 15 months and the thoughts of livi visit me when i hold him and he locks his arms tight around my neck, when i take in the smell and just snuggle him back, when i watch him laugh and blow kisses. i drink in deeply every moment I am with him- he too is funny and cute and smart and full of personality----- special like livi) and i think why am i so lucky and i think of your parents and my brother and sister-in-law and how they had and and then lost this.) that is more than enough for anyone in one earthly lifetime. then, there is Griffin.......!!!
Aunt Marcy

12:08 PM  

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