Who's the cutest girl around?

I am a mom of a cutie pie (very biased). And I wanted to share my experiences with others (including my cuties grandparents, great-grandparents, numerous uncles and other relatives). I love being a mom and can't imagine doing anything else.

Saturday, November 17, 2007


While Alivia was sick we bought and sold Livi bracelets. It was so nice for me to see them on people and know that they were praying and thinking about my girl. I thought when I got my tattoo that I would take mine off because I had a more lasting reminder of my girl on my wrist. But I can't seem to take it off. I like when I still see them on people. It makes me think that they can't seem to take theirs off either. That they can't forget her or stop thinking about her. I know I can't. Every second has reminders for me, every breath.


Blogger Christine Claar said...

Emily and James,
I have never met you, but I feel as if we've know each other for a long time. I was introduced to your blog via the "Pray for Ian" website. I just want to thank you for continuing to share Livi's life as well as your own with us. I think of you every day and you are continually in my prayers. You and your family have been an inspiration to me and so many others. You are truly amazing and have such strength. You have endured so much, yet you continue to inspire me with your faith, positive attitude and selflessness.
As the Thanksgiving holiday approaches I am truly thankful for having the honor of being one of Livi's "prayer warriors". She has affected me in ways that I can not begin to explain. I will continue to lift up you and your family in prayer. Happy Thanksgiving.

1:05 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I thought I might take my livi bracelet off too...but when I thought longer...i knew i never wanted to forget the little girl who touched my heart....i never wanted to stop praying for her amazing parents...so I proudly wear by baby livi bracelet and will till something happens that will make me have to stop. I love you sweet livi!:)


6:14 PM  
Anonymous audra barrick said...

Emily and James

Do you have any more bracelets? I didn't get a chance to order any when you were selling them earlier. There are many of my students who have been praying for you guys and who prayed for Alivia. I'd love to have something visible that would spur discussions - a chance to urge people to get tested to be donors.

Just wondering. We'll be in PA over Christmas and will most likely be at LOLC one Sunday in there.

We're still praying for you and your healing. I wish we lived closer so I could have known Livi in person rather than just through this blog. Thank you for sharing your life, faith, and love.

God bless

9:36 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

She is still on my mind all the time, Emily, and you are too. I often think of Livi when I look at my daughter. I can't imagine how your heart must hurt. You will be in my thoughts and prayers the next few weeks over the holidays. Is there a way I could get a bracelet?? I would like to have it as a reminder to keep you in my prayers.

Lisa Rader

2:18 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Although my Livi bracelet is now permanently inked on my wrist, I always carry spares. Anyone in the Indiana Pa. area who would like one just give me a call or stop me when you see me. Through my tears I would like to thank all of you for remembering Livi and praying for my precious daughter Emily and her wonderful husband James. As it was the day Livi died, we continue to be undone. Pa

11:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I still remember the day that James handed our family the bracelets - we had just been to the marrow donation drive and was so overwhelmed by the number of people. It was the Lord in action - no doubt. Emily, I remember you being so gracious and Livi contentedly sucking on a lolli and James just thanking us over and over again. Andy wears his bracelet routinely and proudly talks of Livi when folks ask about it.
Pray on,
The Carroll Family

4:50 PM  
Blogger Holly W. said...

praying for your family now
Holly Wadding

8:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

What a great way to remember your precious baby. Praying for you, especially as Thanksgiving approaches. -Sue F.

8:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I never knew about the bracelets. I would be honored to have one, maybe two if you have them. My daughter would love to have one too. She is only 4 but NEVER forgets Alivia in our prayers. We still pray for you, James and Livi everyday. Though we never knew her, she touched my family deeply.
Please let us know if there is a way to get a bracelet.
Thank you so much!
With warmest thoughts and prayers,
Vicki Moore

8:12 AM  
Anonymous grande aunt lisa said...

As long as there are Livi bracelets, I will wear them. I wear a blue and white one now and about 4 others in reserves. I have a torn Steeler colored one that broke free of my wrist on Jan 23, the day Livi had her spleenectomy. the one I wear now is on the same arm as my tat and I also wear a bracelet that belonged to my Dad. They are perfect reminders to pause and remember. I miss them :-(

9:14 AM  
Anonymous Jen said...

Hi Emily,
I was wondering if you had anymore bracelets that I could buy one. I keep praying for you and James. It is still really sad and though it is probably still really fresh in your minds and heart God will ALWAYS be there for you and is protecting you in everyway every single day! He loves you and is thankful that you were Livi's parents. You are both treasures and God is/will truly bless you through this!! God bless you! Love you! Jen M.

10:18 AM  
Blogger Parmer Clan said...

I wear mine everyday. I wear it for several reasons, one a reminder to treasure the time I have with my children and to never take a moment God has allowed me to be with them for granted. I can't seem to not wear it. My children still pray for Livi everyday, and I pray for you, dear Emily.

2:00 PM  
Blogger Jude's Mom said...

We have kept every picture and momento of Alivia we have so that we can share her with Jude and, hopefully, our other children. We don't ever want to forget her or have her peers forget her either.

The other day Dan put his coat on at work and pulled one of Jude's mittens out of his pocket. He smiled for a minute and then grief overcame him as he thought of you and James and how many "mitten moments" there must be for you. We want you to know that there isn't a day that goes by that we don't both think of you and pray for you. You (and Alivia) have changed our lives forever...our perspectives, the way we spend our moments together, etc. Emily...WE will NEVER forget her. NEVER.

I miss seeing you...it was good to catch just a quick look at your face on Sunday! I hope you know how deeply you are loved.

Julie (and Dan & Jude too)

8:24 PM  
Blogger LauraJoy said...

I still wear my bracelet as a simple reminder to pray everyday for all of you. Although I didn't know Livi well, I still smile thinking of all the memories you have all shared and looking back at the sweet pictures you've posted throughout your blog. The other day someone at work asked me when I was going to take my bracelet off and I said "I don't know...I guess when it falls off". I love catching it out of the corner of my eye as go about daily tasks and seeing her beautiful name (I have a navy bracelet with her whole name on it). I pray for you everytime I see it. My heart continues to ache for you.
Laura C.

9:13 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Still thinking about you guys all the time- Love you both much!
-Scott & Ang

7:24 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Emily, James & family,
I was digging for my bracelet and can't seem to find it. With all of the business, I can't even find the keys to my classroom, my car, camera etc..(So it isn't the fact that it isn't important.)
I still think of you all everyday and I will NEVER forget Livi. Having never really known you, that is an amazing testament to you and your parenting and faith. Through, every trial and challenge I think of you and Livi and remind myself of how important our short lives are. Thanks for continuing to give us bits of you and reminders of sweet Livi. She has changed the way I see things. Thanks for sharing. I will see Pa about a new bracelet. Take Care and be encouraged that you never leave our thoughts and prayers.
God Bless,
Diana B.

11:09 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Emily and James,
Thanks for your continued posts. I don't want to stop hearing about Alivia. I have her picture at work and at home so I see her every day and my heart both smiles and aches. I think we are meant to feel the pain for a long time. By now you know what others have known...that it is much worse than you imagined it would be even five months ago. This kind of grief is incomprehensible. It would be the same as trying to describe the joy of parenthood to someone who does not have a child. You can't fully appreciate the magnitude and depth unless you experience it.

I saw something on "GODTUBE" the other day and I'm not sure if I should share this, but I am going to take a risk. There is a short video of a little 3 year old girl practicing the 23rd Psalm with her daddy helping her while he is recording her. I have watched it 100 times because it is so cute, but even more because of what struck me as I watched it the first time. This little cutie with blue eyes and strawberry blonde hair is what I imagine Livi looking like if she were still here when she turned 3. As soon as that thought came to me, I suddenly noticed the princess t-shirt and it kind of gave me goosebumps. You may not want to see it. I just like to "dream" sometimes of what she would look like as she grew older. Ilove you guys!
Aunt Marcy
PS How come I am seeing ladybugs EVERYWHERE now-days? I thought they came out in spring, but they are on my porch, on my windshield, my kitchen sink, and I see several of them almost every day. Sometimes they are crawling on me!

6:44 PM  
Blogger Steph B. said...

Emily and James and the rest of the family. Please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers during this Holiday season. I know others are praying for you too....

11:10 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying, praying, praying as this Christmas will be so hard. -Sue F.

1:31 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear James and Emily-

I think of you guys often and even though I don't know you well I am still so encouraged at your strength through the darkest days. Emily, thank you so much for allowing me the privilege to speak about Alivia in my nursing class. It was such a reminder to me of how God is continuing to use her and you. There are often times in my own walk when days appear dark and the Lord has brought you guys to mind. I am so glad that you are part of our church. So glad we can share in your struggle. I also really think that the tattoos are an amazing way to not only share Alivia's life but also the Gospel. What an amazing God we have! PLease know you are in our hearts as you approach the Christmas season without her, but, I know that God is using even this time to strengthen your faith in him. We are praying.

8:27 PM  

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