Who's the cutest girl around?

I am a mom of a cutie pie (very biased). And I wanted to share my experiences with others (including my cuties grandparents, great-grandparents, numerous uncles and other relatives). I love being a mom and can't imagine doing anything else.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

I still have tributes to post (some of which people are struggling to put into words) and I will continue to do so over the next few weeks. Just wanted to take a moment to tell everyone about our Light the Night experience. Our team had a great turn out and we were able to raise over 4,000 dollars!! It was so amazing. I was truly blessed by all who contributed and thankful that we all got to walk together. There were over a thousand people there and it was an amazing night. I just wish Livi could have been there with us. She would have loved all the balloons and people to watch. There was a rememberance ceremony that really touched me. I miss her so much.

This last weekend was our 6 yr wedding anniversary and the 3 month anniversary of Livi's death. What a strange combo for us. There was a desire to celebrate our marriage but also to miss and mourn Livi. We had some friends over to help with the house (thanks Lyndon, Jamie, Matt and David) which is still a work in process. We couldn't have asked for a better present. It is hard to still not have the house done and still have to be devoting so much time to trying to finish projects we started to make the house better for Livi. I just wish the house was done so we could focus on other things. Someday. James and I got to go to a B&B in Brandywine. It was so nice and relaxing. I was talking to my dad before we left and he said that he felt ripped off because we had planned to have them stay with Livi for our anniversary. I feel ripped off too.

We are still moving along. Still trying to keep our heads above the water. In her life Livi and I were never apart for more than 4 hours. I can't believe we've been apart for 3 months. It feels like an eternity already.


Blogger Mona said...

I think of you guys a lot and pray for you! May God give you strength and comfort!

5:28 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is a struggle to put anything about Livi into words that do justice to our feeings. Had a major meltdown last night after talking to Gigi about your wedding anniversary and progress you ar making on the house. Sending you love and hoping you can feel the hugs along with it. Marmie

6:18 PM  
Anonymous Beth Young said...

Praying for you all.

7:17 PM  
Anonymous A Canadian Friend said...

Wishing you blessings!!

7:48 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am still thinking of you often. It's so nice to get a post from you, about your feelings. I am still amazed by you. Congratulations on 6 years! These days that's an eternity!

Continuing prayers for your healing,
Natalie M

8:13 PM  
Anonymous bethaltrogge said...

i love you

8:53 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

each day is a struggle for us....and then I think of you and James and my heart breaks all over again. We miss our dear Livi so much it is indescribable. Mom

9:17 PM  
Blogger Parmer Clan said...

It is very good to hear your thoughts, as all of us are wondering how you are doing. We care about and love you....even if we haven't known you long..or even just thru the blog, we love you for being the greatest "Mama" to Livi, an inspiration to us all. Now we can pray for you better.

9:26 PM  
Anonymous A Sister in Christ Greensburg, PA said...

First of all, I think I need to say happy anniversary to you and James. Your love and committment to eachother has touched many lives, including mine, and I thank you for that. I don't know you at all, but I read your blog every single day and my heart aches deeply for you. I can only keep praying that our gracious Father gives you strength, wisdom, faith, and courage to continue your journey here on earth. You will rejoice one day in heaven with precious Livi. Until then, I wish you and James many more years of love together...you have already proven you're an amazing couple. Livi will live in your heart forever and I truly believe she is now your guardian angel and is watching over you and James..just as you were her's while she was here on earth.

9:52 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy Anniversary. How great it is that you have each other. I never know what to say, but want you to know you're thought of. My heart aches for all of you.
Diana B.

10:10 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks for the personal update. It was so good to hear how you are doing. I can't imagine how hard it is. I had such an urge to pray for you and James last week and Sunday morning. Somedays I think I'm crazy, but ultimately I know it's God. He knows your heartache and your pain. I can't imagine how much you miss her. You were and still are such a great mom to this sweet baby. Did you know that if you google "who is the cutest girl around" you get Alivia? Alivia would be so proud of your Light the Night efforts. What a great tribute to her. I know you miss her so much. I can't say anything to ease that. But you WILL have an eternity to spend with her. It's just so hard to wait for that to come. Still praying. -Sue F.

10:24 PM  
Blogger Jack and Gina Plain said...

And if you google "Alivia", you get "Who's the cutest girl around?" (10th down).

Thanks for sharing how you are doing. We still read and care. May God's grace continue to sustain you. We can't imagine how very hard each day must be for you.

Our love and prayers,

Gina for the Plains

11:16 PM  
Blogger Jude's Mom said...

Awe, Emily! It is so great to hear from you. I'm sure like so many people who have been tracking this journey with you via the blog, I've really wanted to hear from you again and know how you are and what's happening in your life. Thank you for your honesty and for your willingness to share.

Your anniversary with James is to be celebrated! What a wonderful couple you two are. I'm sure you can't imagine your life without him right now. I can't imagine the struggle between the gratitude for your years of marriage and the sadness for your months of loss.

Know that we love you! Thanks again for sharing. And the walk sounds like it was amazing!

Love, Julie

11:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is good to hear from you. I read everyday and think of you guys still and wonder how you are doing. I just found out that some friends of ares there four year old son was diagnosed with lukemia 2 weeks ago don't know the details but they are going through the chemo etc with him. Someday when we get to heaven this will all make sense but for now it is hard to understand Gods plans. Praying for your family.

7:04 AM  
Anonymous laurie said...

Praying for you today.

8:13 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so glad the Light the Night went so well. Reading this post, still shows how much you are trusting god. Thank you for that wonderful example. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to celebrate your anniversary and not have livi there. I will continue to pray for you guys. Happy Anniversary! Keep trusting Him.

love ya,

8:42 AM  
Blogger Lisa said...

Thank you so much for the update, Emily. You are so sweet, and I just wish I could have the chance to get to know you. I am sure Livi would have wanted you to celebrate your anniversary and to smile lots. I know that has to be hard these days. Praying for God to sustain you and for great progress on the house.

Lots of love,
Lisa Rader

9:28 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i think of you so often and continue to lift you up in prayer! i pray that the lord's love and peace surround you as you walk through this painful and difficult time, there truly are no words for such a huge loss! i never had the honor to meet livi or you & james, but i have been touched by your story and can't help but think that my son Logan is blessed to be playing with sweet livi in heaven and to enjoy her friendship. i will continue to lift you before the throne of God and pray for peace, strength and joy.

9:35 AM  
Anonymous Cindy T said...

What a bittersweet anniversary. I started reading your blog from Beth Chase's blog, I've wanted to comment, just didn't know what to say. I think of your sweet Liva each day and I love the tributes from your friends and family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and James.

10:34 AM  
Blogger Heidi said...

Everyday you are still the first blog I read. Its good to hear from you and Congrats on 6 years! WOW! I try to date someone for 6 months ;) You are in my daily prayers.

2:16 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's so good to read your words again. I have been curious to know how you and James are doing. Your journaling of Livi's life has touched so many people. You are an amazing woman. We never met, though I, too, feel like I miss your precious Livi.

3:37 PM  
Blogger Bre said...

I'm happy for you that you got to get away for a litle while and relax with your husband. The Lord still has his hands on you and James and He has put so many wonderful people in your lives.

It was nice to read your thoughts this time Emily. You still amaze me and I have not stopped praying.

Congratulations on your success at Light The Night. You are an example of what love truly is.

3:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


I think of you and your parents so often- You are on my mind and in my heart.
You remain in my prayers...God Grant you peace and comfort..
Hugs to all
Phyllis Miller

9:27 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear sweet Emily, It was so good to hear from you. I still check the blog often too. I am praying for you both too. ... With love in Christ, Janet S.

10:23 PM  
Blogger kingfamily said...

Thanks for sharing!
Praying for your Family, Brandi

3:01 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just want you to know, Emily and James, that you and your families are still in our prayers - every day!
Happy Anniversary! Jessica

4:01 PM  
Anonymous beejee herr said...

Happy Anniv. James and Emily. Each milestone is worth celebrating. Thanks for loving life and those in your life. May God carry you through these grieving times til the oil of joy replaces the garment of heaviness. You are still in my prayers. Love~Beejee

7:54 PM  
Blogger Holly Wadding said...

Thank you for sharing. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

What an incredible witness you are for Christ.

Blessings to you!
Holly W

10:27 PM  
Blogger Steph B. said...

Still praying for you!!!!!

Steph Bowman

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